What I remember about him

There are so many things I remember about my grandpa...there are days he is constantly on my mind and the memories flood my mind. Then there are days I block it all out because it's just still too hard.
Here is what I remember....
*Him & grandma coming to visit us in Louisiana over the summer
*The grandparents taking me & sister to Myrtle beach & staying at the KOA Camp site
*the grandparents taking us to Disney & seaworld when I was 3/4 yrs old
*going to the construction sites he was working on
*living in New York right next door to him
*going to Bash Bish falls
*going to Friendly's in Great Barrington
*having a special bond w him over the military
*knowing that we share the same ribbons
*him sacrificing to move to Louisiana to help raise us
*spending every Christmas Eve w him
*seeing the pride & joy in his eyes that I was on the Air Force
*knowing that he was a fighter through every surgery he had
*riding in the RV when we were little
*him sitting at home in NY w Tipsy (the cat) on his neck

I still wonder if he was proud of us.....of me....if he'd be upset or mad at me by any of my decision in life. I wonder if he's looking down on me and helping me get through the rough days. I still wake up & wish it was all a dream and he was still here. I think we all still needed him but I think that is selfish and because he was in pain and hurting it's better this way....no matter what I love him & miss him more then he'll ever know.

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